I'm Drifting Away From Him.

Im back!!

2006-12-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

Heyy! Im back! heehhe. soriee yarr. i have been busy working on weekdaes and goiin out on weekends. heehhe. hmms. soo much things have happened. sad & happy things. i dunno y i must suffer like tis. but still, my heart is craving for love. eversince i werk at do&me,goshh..many ppl want my number siaa. im not being a big fuck or wat,but im having headaches becoz of tis! heehe. werking at do&me is reaalii GREAT.Super fun. gerek siaa. hahaha. i have kak amrah,abg man,abg umar. gerek dokk. im feeling excited ritee noww..heheh

Great-Ness! =))

2006-11-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

Tats Me & My Bestfren Of 11 Years!

Tats Me & Mirul!

Todae was GREAT! Woohoo! hehes. went to iffa's house with mirul. she got open house. hehes. great uhhs. then went to causeway arnd 3pm. went to watch moovies wit mirul. watch ''The Grudge 2''. Syiokk! Quite scary uhhs. ANJAT MIMI. hehehe. Thats all i cn write. Im bcomin more lazy to update my bloggie. Hehe.
BUBBYYYEEEESSS!!!! =))

COOL-NESS

2006-11-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterdae's ferst dae at werk was cool! yeahh! Kak Amra werk there too. Then got hafiz from hillgrove who werk there. Fun but tired! hahs. Okayy lorr. Some mats senyum at me,i jus reply a smile to them lorr. hahas. i werk from 5pm till 1230am. Uncle blanja us mee hor-fun. yummy! hehes. todae & 2morrow im not werking. onli on weekdaes uhhs. hehes.

hmm. todae quite sucks. its all bcoz of ben. hmm. he like criticising me.fuck uhh.siall. so what if i got many ex? everibody makes mistakes. at least having many ex is 10000000 times better than TWO-TIMING THE PERSON U LOVE MOST,bastard!
Duhh. to think i trusted u. U made me changed. U betrayed me. So,whats up with u? huh? dah lonely aru nak carik aku arh? tak dpt uhhs! fuck uhhs!!!!!

Kidd In Me!! =))

2006-11-02T18:49:00.000+08:00

Had a great time yesterdaee! hehe. Tis pic is taken at Wan's Aunty house. Its a 3 storey terrace house. Cool-ness! Nicee uhh. hehe. I asked Mirul along.
He got along very well with my friends all. Hehe. I had a bad head ache yesterdae. Luckily Mirul was there to help me. I reached home arnd 10+. Then sumting happen. Mom snatched my hp away. i was like, DAMN IT! My hp wasn't off & she surely will read my msgs. but then alot of the msgs are from mirul. it does not contains any SYG or DARLING. so,no worries. i prayed like mad to get my handphone back. I WANT MY HP BACK!!!!!!!!!!

BACK AGAIN.

2006-10-31T20:29:00.000+08:00

Im back at last. Fuhh! i was damn busy & tired the past few days till i didn't have time to online & update my bloggie. Hmm. Took alot of pics during these few daes of Hari raya. Went out with 3NA girls yesterdae. Coloured my hair. Hehe. =)) Hmm. Went out with family the past few daes. Then yesterdae went out with Galfrens. Todae REST-DAE. hehe. Tomorrow going out with Rina,Kina,Khai,Farah,Cicak,Fattah,Eika,& many more. Hehe. dunoe what else to sayy. hMms.

Been Busy Lately.

2006-10-29T17:40:00.000+08:00

Fuhh. Im damn tired. Been going out till late nights the past 3 daes. Had alot of fun too,meting my beloved cuzies. =)) And i paid my hp bill and got it back. But still have to pay another $130 uhhs. haisshh. Anyway,Last week i bought Violet contact lens. But then one of it KOYAK coz my nails r veri long. Shit man. Then just now i went to westmall with bro to buy contact lens. i tot of buying violet again coz its nice. But then finish oraedi. So,i bought brown colour. Its nicee too. It suits my new COPPER BROWN BLOND hair. Hehe. And shaiful told me he still loves me. Hmm. Then i contacted back wit Mirul. Dah lamer tak cntact. Hmm. Dahh lamer jugak tak chat dgn Khus. hmm. im tired uh. tomorrow goin out with frens. With 3NA malay GALS onli. hehe. Sure fun uhh. KECOH punyer uhh. hehe. Kae2. i'll continue later yarr... tata..........

SUPER-FUN Day. =))

2006-10-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

Todae was GREAT. SUPER-FUN. Hehes. We were supposed to have captain ball interclass fer the Sec 3s. But then,onli 3NA & 3NB girls signed up. how to have a competition with onli 2 class?! i was like,"Damn! Shitt lahh. i want to play siaa!" But its okay. 3NA & 3NB girls combined & then we played captain ball & netball against the express girls. Captain ball was fun! I stand on the chair & catch the ball. GREAT! COOL! =)) hahas. My team scored alott. As for netball,of course the express girls scored alott. Coz all are in NETBALL CCA. hahas. Overall,it was great. Had fun laughing arnd. Hahas. Todae Pija,Puteri & Shikin never cum siaa. BUIH betol. 2morrow i gonna scold them. muahahaha! bulan puase dah bes babe! hahas. after skul just now went to westmall with keina,eina & shafiq! had alott of FUN wit them! BESTFRIEND FOREVER!!hehes.

Yesterdae hari raya was OKAY. i mean,GREAT lor. hahas. My Family went to my grandma beside my dad at woodlands. Had fun taking pics with my dearest cuzies. Then we went to my grandma house beside my mom at aljunied. My cuzies all went home alreadii seyy! bored siaa! then my TWIN KAKAK was there with my aunty. Hmm.

Tomorrow is the last dae of skul. Cnfirm gt alott to talk about & there will be alott of plannings on Hari raya outings. I'll bring my digicam! wee! hahas. Damn. im still tired. haiyahh. okayy lorr. till here uhhs. TATA!

Sick On Hari Raya Eve!

2006-10-23T14:36:00.000+08:00

Im sick on hari raya eve! haissh! Last year during Hari raya i gt SORE EYES. it was so bad till my eyes BLEEDS. This yr i gt a realii terrible stomac ache! Damn! i duno what i ate till i get this fucking terrible stomech ache. haissh. but i still continued fasting since todae is the last dae of fasting & tomorrow is hari raya!! yey!! gosh. im reallii tired seyy. i haf to do alot of housework yesterdae & tode. Yesterdae i haf to climb here & tere to clean many things. Hahas. Todae,i haf to continue & iron my whole family's hari raya clothes. walauweii. soo manyy siaa. hahas. then i helped my mother with the cookingg. mom cooked alott of my favourite LAUKs. But i wont eat too much coz i dun wanna be PLUMP again! hahas. todae at skul was dam fucking bored. after the morning assembly , gt prefects rally. of course,i voted haikal as the head prefect. im sure he can do it! he's a good leader. hahas. after that,went to mit mr adam. he told all the chairmans to wait outside his office. thats when the terrible stomach ache came. i reallii cannot tahan siaa. like wanna roll down on the floor. hahas. after that,the pain did go away fer awhile during SS seminar. It was damn BORED. i sat beside yi ting. All the D&T students in 3na & 3nb gt course. its reallii boring without Kina,Pija,Put,Dila,Min,Dia. Hahas. after that i went home. then i remembered that i have to hand in the inter class form!SHIT!! OMG. i mean,how could i ferget??!! Oh my. I'll try & plead with Mr ho uhh. If he dun fergive me,then nvm lor. NO BIG DEAL,anyway. Its just interclass game. My 2NB class last yr won the ferst place. This yr not sure coz most of 2NB peeps are seperated uhhs. i miss 2NB 2005 uhhs. we were realli close. i miss those times when we went to East Coast the whole class & Kampong Glam. we were reallii enjoying ourselve,laughing & joking arnd,taking alotts of pictures. the bond between us was close eventhough we do haf fights now & then. hmm. im reallii upset & angry with jauzi. suke ati lu arh mat. menyampah aku! hmph.

Ohh yaa. I was waiting fer bus 945 at bukit batok interchange. ALONE. Then i turned arnd. Guess whu i saw?? i saw DIDI! eyy2. pandai lahh dierr. hahas. he was with Faris. then he's like hiding from me. Faris was blocking didi's face with his report book. i was lyke, WTF?? His body is not transparent okayy. I can still see him okayy. Stupid siaa. Whu want to look at u anyway?? i just ACCIDENTLY look at u. not DELIBRATELY okayy. so much fer his "Sampai skrg i maseh takleh luper kan u..i masih syg kn u.." GO TO HELL lahh! walauweii. if he reallii loves me,he would try his veryy bestt to win my heart backk ryte?? But he didn't. JUAL MAHAL ARHH TU. Muahahahahas. Jahatt seyy Mimi! Muahahahas. Sabar jer mimi. Besok dahh tak puase,lehh marah2,leh maki2 hamn org! hahas. No lah. Im not that heartless siaa. Hahas.

Okayy2. Now lets talk about yesterdae. I changed my bedsheets yesterdae. Mom bought new one fer me. PINK COLOUR u noe! i love it! PINK BABE! weee!! hahas. My room is reallii very neat ryte now. Maklumlah. Hari raye katekan. Hahas. If not,my roon woll be soo mesyy lyke a PIG CAGE. muahaha. my room looks so refreshing. so PINKISH. hahas.
everytinkk looks neat & tidy. thats how a girl's room should look like. at last my room is clean. if not, mom would nag at me & scold me. sumtimes we would get into fights. well,i know its rude. but i cant stand it. she just dont understand me & im born to be STUBBORN. Like father,Like daughter lahh. muahahas.

Okayy lahh. Till here lahh. im tired. todae confirm never sleep coz got many shows i wanna see! weee! cant wait fer tomorrow! weee!!!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN SEMUE!
Salah & silap harap dimaaf yer..kalau termaki hamun tak tentu pasal,maafkan saye yer.. =))

*Mimi heartx all of euu whu heartx her!!*

Don't Speak. Im Mrs Nobody.

2006-10-21T17:58:00.000+08:00

Im Mrs Nobody! Haisshh. Well. I did the ironing of my whole family's Hari Raya Clothes. Damn. Im so tired man. Quite Bored rite now as Khus isn't here to make me laugh. Hahas. I guessed he's werking or out with his frens ryte now. hahas. I can't wait fer hari raya tis tues! I MISS NENEK. I MISS MY DEAREST CUZIES AT WOODLANDS. Haisshh. I remembered,one time,i ran away from home coz i can't stand my parents aniimore. I was stressed at that time. I was heartbroken because of Ben. Then i broke down in front of my Nenek. She consoled me. She scolded my parents fer being too strict with me. Then i went hm,my parents buat BAEK. But i still couldn't go out & enjoy with frens. At least,i could go home late after skul. Hmm. Im bored eyys. I chatted with ben,& shaifful from Boon lay Sec. We were chatting abt what type of guy i prefer. Then i told him that i now prefer guys that are younger & older than me but not those guys same age as me.
Hmm. I ever stead with 2 guys that are 1 yr younger tahn me. There's nutink wrong with that. In fact,i tink younger guys are CUTER & i tend to be comfortable with them As fer older guys,they are more matured & we can stay with them very long & they are ROMANTIC. Hahs. Well. I have thought it over carefully. I will wait fer MY TRUE LOVE. I will be waiting fer this wonderful dae. Hmm, i'll have to continue with the housewerk again tomorrow. Damn! IM SO HUNGRY. I didn't eat my sahur todae. Urrghhh! IM SOO HUNGRY. Hahs. TAK SABAR NAK BUKE BEB. Hahs. Kae then,till here! TATA! =)))

I gonna CHANGE!

2006-10-19T17:29:00.000+08:00

Well...i have been tinking..i want to cool down & try to forget abt my dirty pasts...i wanna change..i guess im too tired of being rebellious & getting angry easily..maybe i should wait for the guy that realii loves me..maybe..hmm..i just had a fight with jauzi...well...i think we are not fated...hmm...we are from two different world...we are not compatible..i wanna change uhh...hmm..i chatted with shaiful's siz...todae got problem at skool..the watch HEART movie...listen to mp3....thats all...
hmm...HARI RAYA CUMIN SOON!! YEY!!!hahahas.....welll..im bored..haha..chatted with KHUS...hahaha...seow...hahaha....im bored....muahahahahhahahahaha........................................................................

*ouch! my backbone pain cums again....shit!!

Somebody Broke My Fragile Heart.

2006-10-17T17:51:00.000+08:00

Haisshh..i hate it man..why must my love life be soo complicated?? haisshh..what did i do wrong?? why can't i have a relationship that can last long?? haisshh.. well.. nobody would want me when they know bout my ugly past doings..hmm..now...i duno whether im still with shaiful or not..as for jauzi...i duno lah...i feel that he's beginning to drift far apart from me..haisshh..i want to stay single..but im different from other people...i can't live without love uhh..haisshh.. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS MIMI & NOBODY CAN... i was alone..all alone by myself..inside 985 i took fro chua chu kang after sending lina.. i was sitting on the metal thingy,waiting fer 985 to come..& thats where me & shaiful were last 3 weeks... i almost cried... i control my tears... when the bus came,i sit at the back..then suddenly tears roll down,wetting my cheek.. i could feel the pain n my heart...
its soo painful..i cried & cried.. then i stopped.. i reached home,looking so upset..& straight away went into my room & i cried again... then i fall asleep sia..hahaha...crazy...

todae at skool okay lah..watch criter syaitan menangis..the story so sad uhh.. i cried sia.. kina also cried..haha..anyway,i got a new friend todae..his name is Khus..haha..fun babe..giler..huahua...hmm.. k lah ... my backbone problem is actin up again..saket!!!
bye2!!!

MIMI HATES BEING HURT OKAYY. WHU IS THE GUY THAT CAN GIVE ME ETERNAL LOVE & HAPPINESS??????? HMM...........

Lost in the LOVE world...

2006-10-16T16:28:00.000+08:00

Im lost in the LOVE world..Eyy..U know what? Shaiful came back to my life todae..Aminah was msging him,asking what exactly happens between me & him as im CHANGED..Then he sae we broke up oraedi,then i was like,"Oh realli?So what?Hmm." I was like dun care coz i love Jauzi. But he make it worse by saying that i was the one that asked for break up..WTF???ME?HUH? Whatever lah ehh..i was so annoyed with him..And he could still ask what did he do until i "HANYUT".. duhh! he's so....."ehem!" haisshh..Bcoz of him,i rebels,become more stubborn,get angry easily,i started to smoke again..he says that he didn't toy with my heart & that he loves me.. WHAT THE FUCK??!! U hurt me deeply okayy!! Hmph!

But still...i dunnoe why i felt like i want him to be by my side now..maybe,i miss him?? i dunnoe..but one thing fer sure,my love fer him is FADING..

Hmm.. Well,he confirm dun want me when he knows what type of MIMI i am NOW.. Im changed.. Im not the MIMI he used to know..IM VERY STUBBORN,MORE STUBBORN THAN EVER..IM REBELLIOUS,MORE REBELLIOUS THAN EVER.. Yes,i do smile & laugh like crazy..BUT,i do still feel the pain in my heart..its still bleeding okayy..

Now,lets talk about what happened in school todae..I'll tell u from the ferst to the last period..the ferst period is MATHS..as usual,all of us relaxs..fool around..Listen to MP3..then Social studies,we see the story "GANYUT"..kekek babe..hahas..then F&N for 2 period..DAMN FUCKING BORED SIA...listen to mdm norlia talk onli..abt next year's coursework..
then during recess,went to DnT workshop with kina & 3Na malay girls.. Surf the NET..then 3nB malay bois came..kecoh babe! hahas..then during physics,listen to MP3,& laugh arnd like crazy with aminah,kina & nordia..aminah hit my "ehem!" !! its so painful..hahahas..then during english period,Mr ho showed our result..I failed Maths,as usual..Combined humanities,Combined science also fail..This is the written paper that i failed..not yet combined with SA2 all..See what i meant? I couldnt study when im emotionally unstable..hmm..at the same time,kina & aminah was doing up my hair..coz my hair is SPOILT oreadi! ARRGGHH! haisshh...then fer two periods of Chemistry lesson,went to the study corner..Listen to MP3..laugh2...then after school went to eina's house.. ;))

Okayy then..Till here..Will continue tomorrow yeahh.. :))

TODAY...

2006-10-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

I met jauzi todae. With all the members. I went to Bukit Panjang plaza wit eina ferst. we went crazy!
muahaha. im so tired uh. hmm. todae i ate spring chicken! yum! hmm.. anw...
jauzi's maybe going to boys home next mth fer 2 yrs! OMG! hmm...

Im TIRED!

2006-10-12T05:30:00.000+08:00

Ouch! My backbone hurts after sitting in front of the comp, doing new skin fer my blog! Waduh! Sakit Bangat! Hahahas. Well, i got my results fer malay & science. I passed my malay as usual, & fail my science as usual! Muahahaha! hmm. todae i sent lina home. she got menstrual cramp. we took taxi. after that,i went home straight. then i SLEEP!!! hahaha. okayy lah. im so tired after chatting with my two crazy bestfren!Nyahas. Okayy then! Goodbye! MuaCkiez!!!!!! =))

Down with flu!

2006-10-09T16:25:00.000+08:00

Haishh. Im down with flu! I cannot take it! So irritating uhh.
Haiyoh. Hmm. Went to Nenek's house fer a while. This year
hari raya i'll be wearing Light Pink,Dark Pink & Blue. Nicee!
hehs. i misshh him tooo much! hmm. im in love with my new
reborned hair! hehs. OMG! My nose is reallii IRRITATING.
I can't stand it. I can't wait to BREAK FAST! Hehe! ;p *sobs. mimi so shad.

Loves My New Hair!

2006-10-08T16:37:00.000+08:00

-->My new reborned hair.(IM MISSIN U!)

I love my new hair! Wee! hehs. Just reborn my hair yesterdae.
Hmm. went home late yesterdae. reach home arnd 1 plus.
so tired. im miss chocolate!.
I miss u! Im going MAD! Haisshh. Im all alone. Sitting on
the chair. Thinking of u. Missing u. Remembering the times u & i were
together at lot 1 & westmall cinema. oh my. how i wished i could go to u & hug u. *Sobs.
Im wondering.. is he the ONE fer me? who is my true love?
who's the guy that can give me happiness forever? haissh.
Is there that kind of guy in this world? I had enuf of meeting BASTARDs.
They made my life a mess. Its so painful......
(Goodbye my OLD hair. Gonna miss it!)

*Sobs. :'(

Exams over!

2006-10-07T09:52:00.000+08:00

Exams are over! Wee! hehs. Onli left English Oral on tuesday.Hmm.Im so relieved! Hehs. Today im goin to reborn my hair! AGAIN.hehs. im so exhausted. i wasn't feeling well yesterdae. i went to lina's house yesterdae after F&N paper. i wasn't feeling well & i decided to go home. i slept from 2:30pm to 6.57pm. i woke up, eat, watch tv & SLEEP again till 8 plus in the morning. my body is quite hot. i just recovered from a high fever last 2 weeks. am i goin to get high fever again? i hope not! its so irritating uh. hmm. i miss eina & keina. i didn't spend time with them during these daes. i miss these laughter. hmm. yesterdae at lina's house, we talked alot about our EXs. hahas! especially about syafiq. hahas. im still tired uhh! i LOVE u aLL!!!! :)

to be continued...................

It Hurts.

2006-09-29T18:59:00.000+08:00

Life sucks these daes,reallii. I can't stand it. I feel so HURT. Why must he do this to me? His promises are just LIES. I regret it. I thought he could give me happiness after alot of heart-breaking incidents had happened. But NO. He adds more pain and bleeding to my heart. Drats! Its so painful!! Urrgghh! Oh god. Help me! He hurt me when my exam is today! Oh my. I dunnoe how i'll lift myself up and carry on with my life. I feel so weak. So useless. Haiz. How i wished things weren't like this. Why Why Why?? Why Shaiful?? Whats wrong with u?? Are u still a playboy or what???? Huh??! TELL ME!!! Why are u SOO CHICKEN??!! Aren't u sooo fierce huh? If u can confront a guy in ur class,why can't u confront me?? U can't even msg or call me! OMG. u r sooo pathetic,shaiful. Stop all this nonsence and COME TO ME FACE TO FACE!! Stop hiding like a chicken!!

Keina & Reina. My hope are all dashed. Haiz. How to have an eternal relationship with him if he is like this? Both of u know how bad i have been hurt rytes?haiz.

GOD,HELP ME OVERCOME THIS!